One down, two to go!
And so begins the second trimester - I'm already a third of the way done cooking this thing, can you believe it? I'm sure the next six months will be interesting, especially since I'm entering uncharted territory. Soon I'll be finding out the sex of the baby, buying a whole bunch of stuff, and becoming (and feeling) as big as a blimp.
I wish I was a better writer sometimes... I read a small sample of Jenny McCarthy's pregnancy book, and I can 100% imagine her talking exactly as she writes. She reminds me of my sister, in fact :) I'm always afraid I make these blogs too boring, full of run-on sentences, or just totally lame. It's not uncommon for me to start writing a blog and say halfway through, "Screw it! This sucks!" and just delete it altogether. That may happen this time; you never know! Often, I feel like I have nothing to write about... quite frankly, my life is NOT that exciting. I don't work, I don't go to school, and my days are filled with, um, not much. All I can talk about are my feelings, and that's a scary thought. To be honest, I wish I had a good job that I could talk about. I went to school for one reason - to have a career and be able to better support my family. Having failed at that thus far, it's very easy for me to become disheartened and frustrated at the way things have turned out post-graduation. However, I trust that God has a plan for my life, and there's a very good possibility that what I had planned for myself isn't what God had in mind. That said, it's hard to let go. I told Mark that when our child is old enough to go onto college, I'm going to advise him/her to choose a different path than what I took - such as going to med school to become a doctor, studying engineering or some other trade, or anything else that would properly equip them for life after graduation. In these tough economic times, people need to learn a craft, and not just study a certain kind of science in order to be successful (career-wise at least). Hindsight is always 20/20, and it sucks knowing that I could very well be in a different position than I am today if I had just tried harder or done something entirely different. But as Doris Day once said, "Que sera sera." Can't go back in time, right?
I wish I was a better writer sometimes... I read a small sample of Jenny McCarthy's pregnancy book, and I can 100% imagine her talking exactly as she writes. She reminds me of my sister, in fact :) I'm always afraid I make these blogs too boring, full of run-on sentences, or just totally lame. It's not uncommon for me to start writing a blog and say halfway through, "Screw it! This sucks!" and just delete it altogether. That may happen this time; you never know! Often, I feel like I have nothing to write about... quite frankly, my life is NOT that exciting. I don't work, I don't go to school, and my days are filled with, um, not much. All I can talk about are my feelings, and that's a scary thought. To be honest, I wish I had a good job that I could talk about. I went to school for one reason - to have a career and be able to better support my family. Having failed at that thus far, it's very easy for me to become disheartened and frustrated at the way things have turned out post-graduation. However, I trust that God has a plan for my life, and there's a very good possibility that what I had planned for myself isn't what God had in mind. That said, it's hard to let go. I told Mark that when our child is old enough to go onto college, I'm going to advise him/her to choose a different path than what I took - such as going to med school to become a doctor, studying engineering or some other trade, or anything else that would properly equip them for life after graduation. In these tough economic times, people need to learn a craft, and not just study a certain kind of science in order to be successful (career-wise at least). Hindsight is always 20/20, and it sucks knowing that I could very well be in a different position than I am today if I had just tried harder or done something entirely different. But as Doris Day once said, "Que sera sera." Can't go back in time, right?
And now for a 14 week "bump" picture:
As frustrated as I get with life sometimes, I look at my little bump and forget about all the crappy stuff for a moment. I'll be honest with you all, for a long time I wasn't even sure if I wanted kids. They were the last thing on my mind. But now my mindset has completely changed - I can't wait to meet our little baby. I'm going to be tickled pink when he/she finally comes! Just six more months to go, lil' peanut <3
So, I sort of overdid it on the red eye removal and now I have dark demon eyes - oops :)
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